Thursday, June 15, 2017
poem:"....Watch the slow door" (15jun17)
"Come back in tears...love of finished years." [5]
Although in a dream, she pines for death where she can be in Paradise with him. Where, perhaps not described this way before is that of Heaven as a 'slow door', "That opening, letting in, lets out no more." [12]
The idea of the slow door is telling, it shows Rossetti's comparative discord in the poem, in one point the terribly quickness of the dream where she recalls her lover, and the agonizingly slow door of Heaven. The placid pace of time and what was lost, the immeasurable time of 'finished' years.
She grasps at him in the last, and urges him to "speak low, lean low" [17], as he did before. Rossetti was an English poetess and fairly popular in her lifetime, she died of cancer in 1894.
ECHO, 1854
Come to me in the silence of the night;
Come in the speaking silence of a dream;
Come with soft rounded cheeks and eyes as bright
As sunlight on a stream;
Come back in tears,
O memory, hope, love of finished years.
Oh dream how sweet, too sweet, too bitter sweet,
Whose wakening should have been in Paradise,
Where souls brimfull of love abide and meet;
Where thirsting longing eyes
Watch the slow door
That opening, letting in, lets out no more.
Yet come to me in dreams, that I may live
My very life again tho’ cold in death:
Come back to me in dreams, that I may give
Pulse for pulse, breath for breath:
Speak low, lean low,
As long ago, my love, how long ago.
...
SONG, 1848
When I am dead, my dearest,
Sing no sad songs for me;
Plant thou no roses at my head,
Nor shady cypress tree:
Be the green grass above me
With showers and dewdrops wet:
And if thou wilt, remember,
And if thou wilt, forget.
I shall not see the shadows,
I shall not feel the rain;
I shall not hear the nightingale
Sing on as if in pain:
And dreaming through the twilight
That doth not rise nor set,
Haply I may remember,
And haply may forget.
...
Thursday, June 8, 2017
musing:Kerouac haiku
Reading collected poems of Kerouac, musing over haikus:
"The cow, taking a big
dreamy crap, turning
To look at me"
"Train tunnel, too dark
for me to write: that
'Men are ignorant'" [562]
Jack with the long, dull stare. The blankness belies the deep understanding of movement. The facts of a scene. "This is what is happening. Unencumbered."
Realness that has been degregated today. Real is overly subjective, with currents, and politics, and emotions, and narcissism. Real as not what is, but it means in who I want to show the fake me to be.
Jack looking out from the bus window. Enmeshed in the slatted bench on the dry wood porches of the general store. Hazily awake through lace curtains and hand crafted glass.
"Run after that
body - run after
A raging fire" [527]
"Mild spring night -
a teenage girl said
'Good evening' in the dark" [560]
Hungry poets, looking for truth in moments. Unencumbered by sights, smells or touch. Emblazoned in your mind with words instead. Hungry for feeling. Rawness. Newness. Sensualness. A deep faith.
"Jack Kerouac...was a Catholic poet - his cross was not a plain cross, not a Protestant cross, stripped of the body of the sacrificed man-God....his own heart that bled like an iron rose, a Rose-En-Fer....the depths of infinite thoughts." [xxi]
"To be a poet's poet is to hurt. To hurt singularly, to hurt incomprehensibloy, to suffer a wound that never heals..." [xxix]
Jack, awash in an abandoned supermarket parking lot, finding meaning in purple flowers. A needy cat at home that interrupted his reading of Zen koans. A poet who wrote in spurts, three words and done. Then tracts and tracts on rolls and reams. Eternity of nothingness, then of God, then of the Devil, then of cows dreamily staring at him with their empty orbs as they shit in a hot Missouri field.
[Reading "Jack Kerouac: Collected Poems" edited by Marilene Phipps-Kettlewell, Library of America, 2012.]