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Monday, November 30, 2015

...“La Guitarra de Martín Sanchez” CHAPTER 5: Excerpt...

La Guitarra de Martín Sanchez
CHAPTER 5: Excerpt
1933, San Diego

The room did not exist until, in an instant, it returned into view like the burst of a bubble.  The light and color of the world rushed upon her, Abigaíl didn’t realize she had fallen into the parlor chair.

Her mother sat calmly across from her, with a look of sadness that was certainly not meant, her eyes tinged in a glow of triumph.  She would say that this was what was expected of a shiftless musician.  She would say that they shouldn't have gone down to Mexico, seeking unsubstantiated fortune.  She would say Martín's name as if she were spitting a rich illness from her throat.  Her mother's lips moved like pantomime, as if a moving picture reel had been slowed.  She had seen such a thing at the cinema house on the main street.  The projectionist was embarrassed at the mistake, but it lit the theatre with laughter.

Her brother, Earnesto, so much younger, sat bored in another chair, staring out the windows that lined the ceiling.  Where the angle of the ceiling sloped toward the front of the house, her father felt that stain glass was perfect there.  The only problem in the design is that the colored light was never struck by the sun.  It never floated its way across the room the way he expected.

Earnesto should have had the stereographs in his hand, but he was probably told not to.  He did not understand death.  Nor should he yet.

Rosa was crying and shaking in her chair, Abigaíl knew it would take weeks for her to regain her composure.  It was not as if Martín was her fiancée.  Abigaíl now knew Rosa had thought much more about them then she realized.  Seeing the poor maid and the terrible face she made: it struck her heart.  There will be physical pain with Martín’s passing.  Abuelo Cassius was missing from the scene.

Abigaíl could not moved, the telegram in her hand.  What of his mother?  Does Lucia know?

Her mother put a hand on hers.  It was cold.  Abigaíl did not blink in her gaze, "He is not dead.”  Her mother leaned back in her chair, an amused glow on her face.

“What?”  She almost wanted to laugh and Abigaíl caught it and would hate her for it.

“Was there a body?  I won’t believe it until I see a body.”

“Dear…the telegram comes from the Mayor’s Office of San Simeon.  They sent his affects to his mother.”

“You spoke with her?”

“Yes.”

“What affects?”

Her mother shivered.  She shivered in a way that showed she, at least, felt for a maternal spirit.  “His papers.  In fact, all the papers of all the men came back here.  They followed the telegram.  Lucia also spoke, brokenly, about a story in the newspapers down there.”  Her mother made a sound on the verge of a chortle, “You know it was the first time her and I ever spoke.”  Her mother let that go, continuing to pace the room.  She cut the shaft of lighted dust, cast by the large bay window, of the setting sun, across her waist.  “Your father called some of his people.  The story from the papers is that one cartel fought another.  The mariachi were playing and were killed along with them.  It is a sensation and a scandal.  Those men are American.  I don’t think the cartel realized that.”

“What good is it now?”

“There will be an official inquest.  The federal government will get involved.”  Her mother sat back down.  The dying light of day reflect warm colors on her permanent.  She smiled in a way that Abigaíl had not seen since she was a child.  Her hands fell up on hers again.  “I’m so sorry, Abigaíl.  I truly am.”

It almost sounded as if she meant it.  “Where is abuelo?”

“He didn’t…”

“I don’t want to see him ever again.”

“Abigaíl.”

“He hated Martín.  He told him he wanted him to die.  There: he is dead!”

Thursday, August 6, 2015

...let's talk...

...let us speak no longer of gossamer wings
of the prismatic hues and the light of air
feelings

...no more of sleepless nights and the fires
that burn on Parnassus and Elysium
homage fires to the Platonian locus

...of ancient warriors on winning steeds
that quake the earth in armor and steel
the lights of the day mingle with tears and anguish

...let us speak quietly
of love
of love
in unpracticed motions
or remembered lines
you
me
our bodies and lives
are undiscovered
and we strike
for love

...mercurial, yes
a genesis
that will
echo
over eons...

Sunday, May 31, 2015

...palm trees, the passion of Lorenzo...short study...

The palms brushed one another in the wind like his mother's hands as she pulled the hojas together in preparation of tamales.  He paused as he thought of her, awaiting the hatred to rise in his chest, but it didn't come.  He continued his memory, the smell of the ingredients for atole, the cinnamon and vanilla, would mix with the brusque smells of pork.  He paused again as the memory came back to his mother.  She had large Mexican biceps, a product of cooking materials for hundreds of years, perhaps even longer.  The mashing, the rolling, the kneading.  Her hair was pulled back.  She wore a plain brown dress that he hated.  I hope I never see that again.

There was the hate again.  Lorenzo welcomed it in.  At 19, and high school becoming a memory, he pulled what was a primary drive in his heart.  With high school and all of its pain receding, and a year of working at the auto insurance office smoothing out his other passions, he enjoyed sitting still and taking in the passions of hate.  He hated her.  He wished he could bite her again like she said that he would do as an infant.  He loved hating her.  She never really did a thing to him, but he found her grossly stupid.

He found that the palm trees overhead had blurred from his sight.  He was looking beyond them for that moment, and only the blue of the sky was there.  As soon as he became conscious of this the palms came right back into view.  He took in a deep breath.  Let it go now.  He got what he needed from his undying hatred.

Lorenzo shifted his girth from his back to his side, propping his hand on his cheek.  His long, dirty hair falling in front of his face.  He looked out across the park and only saw a few families enjoying the last light of day.  Parents half-aware, heads buried in their phones.  The kids looking back for acknowledgement, approval.  They don't know how much better...to be disconnected.  He didn't have his phone out because he was mad at Lindsay, ignoring Carlos, while Beth and Laura were mad at Lorenzo.  Good.  The phone was an intruder today.

He pulled out his cigarettes from his front pocket.  He searched for a pack of matches he had taken the other night at the El Calor.  It was an old club on the west side.  He didn't know why Lindsay and Carlos went there.  It was a goof.  Carlos would laugh, but, when he wasn't laughing his face eased and there was something he was getting there.  Perhaps it was the men in cowboy hats and boots.  Carlos would never admit that.

Lorenzo swung his hair back and fumbled with dirty fingers at the matches and lit up.  He stared at the sun and told it to fuck off.  He let the beat from Celani's 'Over & Past' bump across his mind and had no more thoughts for a few minutes.  He wondered where he would go tonight.  Everyone's mad and he couldn't go back to mother's.  Not tonight anyway.

The car.  He'll sleep in the car again, but not here.  There was a park near Sunset that he found before, getting stuck in the area when he almost ran out of gas and had no money.  He searched his pockets for the fortieth time today.  Three dollars and fifteen cents.  There was a meal.  There was no gas.

He sighed and absently flicked his cigarette.  He could go back to work and search his co-workers desks for loose change again.  They were threatening to get a security system put in and Lorenzo felt bad when the memos went out.  If you leave money out...

Lorenzo could only get up by putting his weight on a knee and almost stumble upward.  He flipped up his black hoodie and took another smoke before flicking the butt out into the grass.  Maybe it'll catch fire.  He went to his car and put on Evoke & Bijou's 'Bittersweet' and a pair of $5 sunglasses that he got at Wal Mart.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

...Literary Gifts for Christmas, 2014...

My shopping done, my mind at ease (at least here), I offer these to your family and friends that uphold the literary and fantastical.  Play a mix of R&B Christmas and stroll on down.


Have (and use) the full format version, mention this one because it is effective and it comes in a pocket sized edition for the holidays.  So cute.

Wear your heart of darkness on your neck, not as a noose but as a lovely scarf.  This one is of "The Cask of Amontillado".  I spent a healthy part of high school memorizing the opening lines.

These days playing chess by yourself is a normal part of a nerd's life.

Absinthe and sandalwood tones embue this candle.  Write whilst smelling Edgar's smoking jacket I suppose.

Demeter Fragrances:
Dramatic fragrances for a night of reading or writing.  I put a few drops behind my ears before sitting down with Sylvia Plath.  

Hope Necklace in Silver - Emily Dickinson 
"Hope is the thing with Feathers that perches in the Soul, and sings the tunes without the words, and never stops at all."  Oh Emily, you've enlivened my demeanor.
These charms are getting increasingly more ornate and specific.  Saw another today that is for those fond of zombies.


A very comprehensive bit of jewelry, with the opening paragraphs of one of my top five romantic novels.


I can't think of a better gift for the true purveyor of the written word.  It is 216 pages long and allows you over a hundred pages to log the books you've read, a section on books you'd like to read, where you buy your books, ones you've borrowed, ones you've lent.  OMG OCD.

Gardenia, Tuberose and Jasmine.  As but I could rest on her bosom and smell these notes.

Those Barnes & Noble "Little Gifts"
You've seen these for years: small palm-sized boxes that house a bit of fun in all forms.

Classic book covers and author photographs will call out as we play a game together.

...

...from the club...and a few blue drinks...




A longing for control that no man could possibly claim
Hard press you to me
Eager hands and discerning mouth
a mind that will not falter
til a thousand pleasures sought along your body.


Saturday, December 13, 2014

Word Counts of Short Format Novels

When winding down on "Freeway 1979", I came to a conundrum that intrigued me, 'Fifty thousand words does not a novel make'.  Freeway is an action novel and the tenor of it is crisp and sharp.  I abhor extraneous back story for some of the characters, instead opting that their terse words and actions speak to their past.  The last mile, about four thousand words, had me sloughing through that very exercise.  I felt like I was writing a college assignment that I cared little for.


First Edition Cover
Out of the 50k+ words for Freeway, I think the perfect word count would come down to 32k and no more than 35k.  After that, it will certainly plod.  In response, I thought over many shorter form novels I've read and wondered at their word count.  My admiration for them is that they put forward a bold story and in a format that frames its immediacy.

In the process of this discovery, I found this site: http://www.hemingwayapp.com/.  It's promise is that it will analyze your story and find ways to whittle down what it considers too much.

Novels that came immediately to mind were:

Old Man and the Sea - Earnest Hemingway 6,162
The Great Gatsby - F. Scott Fitzgerald 47,094
The Red Badge of Courage - Stephen Crane 47,180
The Snows of Kilimanjaro - Earnest Hemingway 9,162

Of them, Gatsby is just a powerhouse.  All of them are memorable.  Others came up like, 
Old Yeller - Fred Gipson 35,968 and Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe - C.S. Lewis 36,363.  Taunt prose and an efficiency of words.

First Edition Cover
All told, I have 18k words of inefficiency.  Nothing beyond what should be considered notes.  It'll be integral on the second pass, I'm sure, but it was painful.

For grins, I checked in on my favorite novel of all time to see its word count: Adventures of Huckleberry Finn - Mark Twain 110,668.

Sometimes it takes as many words as you need to tell that story.

Saturday, November 29, 2014

25,000!

To put an optimistic spin on things, this month started out rough and remained that way through half of it.  Despite the thousand natural shocks that flesh is heir to, I have been able to push out of my aching fingers 25,000 words right before midnight.  The math not being too difficult, that means I have to push out another 25k in two days!  No, it's not going to happen unless I can sit in front of the computer with my eyes pulled open like young Alex from A Clockwork Orange and type like a monkey on cocaine...like that movie about the monkeys on cocaine.

Being a bit thoughtful about it, I will definitely strive to hit another 7k by Sunday night.  This novel is not meant to be 50k to begin with.  It may eventually reach 40k at the very end.  But it's meant as a potboiler, more in the style of dime drug store novellas of the 1940s.  On average, I understand they would reach 40k.  It's a ham-fisted fast affair and not derived on exposition but action (like the titular Jackson).

Saturday, October 25, 2014

...A Buffet of Short Horror...25OCT14...


Robert Louis Stevenson wrote horror.  I didn't know this until I was randomly looking up my favorite authors and relating them to horror.  Assuredly, I came across The Body Snatcher, first published in 1884, as part of a magazine extra.  The story follows a pair of questionable medical students that make sure they never run low on cadeavors for their employer.  It is based on the real-life case of the Burke and Hare murders.  Murder as a business came long before Izzy Azalea - this pair made sure that sixteen bodies made it to the nefarious Doctor Robert Knox.

No these are gone....GONE!!!  This is
the greatest horror story of modern times.
That had treacherous murder.  But raspberry
donuts.  Raspberry...donuts.
M.R. James wrote The Tractate Middoth and was published in 1911 in a second collection of ghost stories.  Middoth recounts the deathbed story of a dying man.  Some twenty years earlier the titular book is sought out by one John Eldred, but a ghost takes the book before it can be retrieved.  The ghost is a protector of sorts, as the pages hold within it the inheritance.  There is vengeance from beyond the grave for Eldred.  The story has been adapted several times on British television.

The Lottery by Shirley Jackson (1948), is one of the most famous horror stories of its time, with a theme very well known today.  Not to spoil the ending, but as the name suggests, a small town holds a yearly lottery.  From it, a name is chosen and the fun begins.  This theme has been copied several times since.  There was an episode of Sliders in fact that ran the lottery directly from an ATM.  There's also little known movies like The Hunger Games.

Washington Irving's The Legend of Sleepy Hollow is well known, in fact being one of the earliest pieces of American literature to have survived in popularity since it was first published in 1820.  Irving also wrote Rip Van Winkle.  When Disney started to adapt Legend they found the running time not long enough for a feature, so it was packaged along with Wind in the Willows during WWII.


Mark Twain's A Ghost Story comes to us from his 1875 Sketches New and Old.  As Twain is a man of sincere wit, especially as it comes to the pitiable type, he delivers in spades here.


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Like Stevenson, Charles Dickens' Three Ghost Stories is an epic writer, and the supernatural is a natural fit for his style.  Dickens and Poe can be considered on the same playing field in many respects.  In Three, the most popular of them is The Signal Man, but The Haunted House and The Trial for Murder are just as effective.  In Signal, a railway signal-man tells the story of sighting a ghost, each time preceding a disaster upon the tracks.  It calls back a disaster five years before Dickens wrote the story, the Clayton Tunnel Disaster in 1861.

The Phial of Dread by Fitz Hugh Ludlow.

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Zots - never had them.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

...favored children's books on Halloween...05oct14...

The term 'vintage' for books falls woefully short, since good stories never go out of vogue.  Most of the time, they live up to their promise and are carried forward along with us.

As Halloween nears, there are few things as a child that we carry forward with the same emotional response than with horror.  Surely, we delight in it, we find exhilaration.  They give us a thrill like nothing else.  A good horror children's book will have a lasting impression upon our eager minds.  How many times did we hide a book, to hide from the sheer fear of its stories? Or, did you sneak them under the sheets, along with the all too critical flashlight, reading them in the unguarded shadow of night?

These are the stories I was lucky to fall into as a child, and have warped my senses since.

"In a Dark Dark Room" by Alvin Schwartz
"In a Dark Dark Room" is so evilly bent.  The horror I felt as a child (at what I thought was to be a benign book) today gives way to a twisted pleasure.  The stories are deceptively short.  There is an efficiency of words.  Yet, tied with the illustrations, where they outline the real terror, are tremendously effective.

"and Jenny's head..." Jenny's head! It fell off her body, only because Alfred was unwilling to let her be.  Oh, Alfred, could you just enjoy her loving attention otherwise?


With the Berenstain Bears' "Trick or Treat", "In the Dark" or "Berenstain Bear's and the Haunted House"there are some genuine scary moments, especially considering the amount of danger the kids were in.

Imagine escaping from one's room in the middle of the night and running through the country side and into the dark of the forest.  That's just cray.

Alfred Hitchcock's "Spellbinders of Suspense"

The Alfred Hitchcock series, which I've blogged a few times now, will always delight.  In "Spellbinders of Suspense", there are stories by heavyweights of suspense.  The illustrations were moody, though not heavily detailed.  Stories included:
"The Chinese Puzzle Box" by Agatha Christie
"The Most Dangerous Game" by Richard Connell
"The Birds" by Daphne du Maurier "Man From The South" by Roald Dahl "Yours Truly, Jack The Ripper" by Robert Bloch "The Man Who Knew How" by Dorothy L. Sayers


Then there's Hitchcock's "Haunted Houseful", with stories like:
"The Red-Headed League" by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
"The Treasure in the Cave" by Mark Twain
"The Forgotton Island" by Elizabeth Coatsworth
"The Water Ghost of Harrowby Hall"


There's the raw artisan nature of "Georgie".  It's just terribly cute.

One of my go-to books,
Scholastic's "FunFact Book of Ghosts" or
here.















A few definitive books that carried terrible visions for me for years of my childhood: the Scholastic books being one of the first.  I had checked it out of the Euclid Library so many times they actually stopped me from doing it for several months to allow other kid's to get nightmares.  I just couldn't put it down.

Then the Usborne Guides - holy criminy these were the worst
offenders!  The illustrations were just bloody,
malignant merzky messel.  This was my 'little black book' at
the time and one brought to the Boys and Girls Club.  There
were the headless, the poltergeists, the phantom warnings.
Damn you, Usborne and your twisted ways!

The Haunted Mansion 45, just fun!
The truly blood-curdling illustrations
of the Usborne Guides, this blogger
has more.


















Five Little Pumpkins by Dan Yaccarino - it's the funnest song for
Halloween and pumpkins by far.


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Wednesday, October 1, 2014

...they played Brahms and I played the coat check girl...

The theater was small, too small to his liking.  It stood with a squat facade and although you would expect the incongruity of a larger ceiling, it was laughably small.  The paint was shabby and he knew, by having recently trumped Savannah in growth, the city council were probably already itching to stamp this building out and build something that would overshadow anything in the State.  The orchestra would not rival New York's, and would have been hung had they played this 'well' in Austria.


It sat some two hundred persons.  Thaddeus rolled his eyes where some of the men had to stand.  The box office had oversold the tickets.  He amused himself during their loose rendition of Brahms'  Tragische Ouvertüre by almost talking himself into lifting the front register.  When he was younger, it was so simple as the outside staff was non-existent, either eating dinner or finding a way to listen to the concert themselves.  This piece was new, so there was great interest from the elite and all of Atlanta's finest were assembled tonight.  He calculated some $400 dollars in the register tonight, and almost $20 in the staff's pockets where they already skimmed - overselling tickets never seem to make their way into the books.  The owner would be furious, but would be hard-pressed to prove anything.

The bold glorious intermission occurred and he made all of his mental notations.  The ostentatious rabble of the riche bared their breasts that Thad would have thought himself on the beaches of some Pacific Island shore.  The brown-skinned heathen would scarce wear grass as a dress, by the stereograms he had seen recently at Lord & Taylor.  Here they wore dark silks and velvet taffeta.

Here, on pale bosoms, were the catalog of the jewelry that would be slowly relieved of these ladies in the next year.  There, hanging from button holes, were timepieces that were equally valuable.  The men, typically as young as Thad, were the ones pulling them out more often.  You see, they wanted for them to be admired.  "What's that you say?  Oh, this old thing, man!  Why it is my father's 14k gold Elgin.  Not much too speak of.  It had seen service during the Mexican War.  My father had it on his person as he fought alongside General Scott.  An amazing piece actually!"

I warmly greeted many of the men around the whiskey bar.  All were smiles and gentle nods.  None were prone to conversation.

As the intermission concluded, I hung back and offered my seat to an older gentlemen that wore a British Crimean War medal.  He, hunched with the ravages of time more than war, happily took to it, and I wandered over to the lobby.

I hung back and made eye contact with the coat check girl.  She was a little thing, not yet out of her teens.  It took time to show my interest, and she eventually (invitingly) smiled.  I finished up the cigarette used as a prop to have her look my way and sauntered over.  I lightly smiled.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gertrude_K%C3%A4sebier

"My what a pretty little thing you are."

"Thank you, sir."

"No sirs, miss...?"

"Minnie...Minnie Houlson."

"Nice to meet you Minnie," he kissed her hand gently.  It was soft, not sullied by time.  He gave her his name and continued his catalog of names and finer things.

"Now that jacket, that looks like a friend of mine from downtown.  Goes by the name of Johnson."

She giggled, "No, that's Hartlet.  January Hartlet."

And the game continued, punctuated by moments of genuine affection, useless trivia, familial names, Brahms, eggs, weather and nothing else.  However, at the end of the forty minutes, when Minnie would be called away by a sullen-in-the-extreme woman by the name of Gertie, Thaddeus had a dozen or more names to tie.  He took out a small notebook and made a furious rout of notes.  They lacked copiousness, but would be later made up for at home.

The concert finished with a flourish, as well as some poorly timed decisions of the brass, that led to the downfall of the strings.  The conductor had stormed off the stage to the delight of the patrons, who cheered anyway.  The symphony was new and its benefactors understood the luxury of time and its eventual riches.

Thaddeus watched the coat check girl from a distance, handing out the coats: Richmond, Parque, de Elyes, Brogue, Latchfield, and so on.  All he had to do was follow the jewelry out the door and into the night.

He also understood the luxury of time and seen tonight that patience was in order.




Monday, September 22, 2014

...measured...

How shall we measure it
Is it physicality?
The rush of blood through our members
The blush response
In tears then?
In long and languid sighs
When reciprocity is figured like an equation that ends falsely
An irregular sum
A null statement; the sum or product was false to begin with
Then what was this that was felt
Far to look backward, inward
If by feeling then how measured
For I felt and feel
In tears and sighs
My God how I apologize.  Measure it thusly?

Perhaps in works?
In poems and drafts and art
In sketches and of clay
How many to prove? 
Words as proof, as better parts where the whole may be lacking
I know I know
I know it like the song I capture in a sigh
The declarative made when ended in a tear stain
The ink run
But not far enough.

Is it time?
If it is not enough now, would a year suffice?
Is that how it can be proved.
Two or more.
Twenty?
If the sense of novelty can be stripped away in the nearness of now
Would then you see?
If, combined, I stack all these as a whole in two decades or more
And lay them at your feet and earnestly lie, a poorer comparison
would be proved
But the physical will pass as it should
But the art remains
But will it prove?  When I am gone?

Saturday, September 20, 2014

...Balboa Pier Fishing...August 2014...



Louise Gluck, 1943
Vespers
In your extended absence, you permit me 
use of earth, anticipating
some return on investment. I must report 
failure in my assignment, principally 
regarding the tomato plants.
I think I should not be encouraged to grow 
tomatoes. Or, if I am, you should withhold 
the heavy rains, the cold nights that come 
so often here, while other regions get 
twelve weeks of summer. All this 
belongs to you: on the other hand, 
I planted the seeds, I watched the first shoots 
like wings tearing the soil, and it was my heart 
broken by the blight, the black spot so quickly 
multiplying in the rows. I doubt
you have a heart, in our understanding of 
that term. You who do not discriminate 
between the dead and the living, who are, in consequence, 
immune to foreshadowing, you may not know 
how much terror we bear, the spotted leaf,
the red leaves of the maple falling
even in August, in early darkness: I am responsible 
for these vines.



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Friday, September 12, 2014

...Robert Frost...the Heat Wave...12sep14...

My parents returned from Vermont a week ago and brought back with them a copy of Robert Frost's Poems.  A simple paperback copy from St. Martin's Press (1971 version).  Thankfully I received a present I find enriching.  As I am sweating at my desk in the break of the historical record of heat, I came across his Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening.  How it awakens the frost long forgotten otherwise.  The type of snow that silently falls, as gentle as nothing else along our hair and skin.

Whose woods these are I think I know.   
His house is in the village though;   
He will not see me stopping here   
To watch his woods fill up with snow.   

My little horse must think it queer   
To stop without a farmhouse near   
Between the woods and frozen lake   
The darkest evening of the year.   

He gives his harness bells a shake   
To ask if there is some mistake.   
The only other sound’s the sweep   
Of easy wind and downy flake.   

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,   
But I have promises to keep,   
And miles to go before I sleep,   
And miles to go before I sleep.
 - 1922



As a stone, through lifeless lids, track the monotone horizon
The fire extinguished, the sun black marble
The memory lost.

The cold no different than cold flesh, covered frost
My breath no different in the air
Thoughts decay.

All to ice, the tracks undisclosed, layer upon layer,
Hardened upon itself, a clear glue
The heart last.
- 2014

Monday, September 8, 2014

...through the ripples how they shine...08sep14...

the yellow pad and all of what it affords, sep'14
Endlessly working like a Tolstoyan laborer in the harsh freeze of the Tundran farm.

Half-way through the second draft of my first full novel 'Filipino Cookbook', getting it prepped for a professional editor.  This was the outcome of last year's NaNoWriMo and I've been polishing it as much as I have the ability to.  Polishing it with the care afforded the small Native American child, using his small hands to polish the inside of an abalone until it sparkled in the sun.

Gearing up for this November's wicked ride with a narrative re-study of a script I completed back in 2004, 'Freeway 1976'. Seemingly, I know the ending to it, but it has been lost in multiple transitions from one computer to the next.  But, having not committed it seemed to have a latching effect, and it is in my memory locked.  That'll be this year's novel.

In between, doing a study of another concept, 'Thief'.  It is a response of sorts, where I challenged myself with the question, if I could not create a game, what would the story be?  You'll note it in the last couple of entries on the blog.  Thanks for visiting, and if you haven't done so, please check out the Store for anything you may be interested in.  No pressure.  It's always there.  :)

Monday, August 25, 2014

...it was well after midnight, but my body, preternaturally, awoke...

1881.

...the light electric, the gas lamps: they made divisions of the city where no respecting citizen would: out of Christian fear of making light of someone's position.  But the lamps would tell the truth: gas for the poorer streets, where men like me dare the night and its hideous face.  Those that lived here, only slightly above the urine rivulets that tracked the cobblestone.  If the denizens desired peace they must go off to hide behind padlocked doors at the hint of night: a club in their hand and one eye open.

It was not uncommon, here, on Windsor Street, for the meekest of all God's creatures have the most horrible things enacted upon them.  And all of the people of the Fourth Ward would cry out at the funeral on Sunday and forget the dead by Monday morning.  [I'll be the first to admit that I find great pleasure in hypocrisy where it's gluttonous jowls look upward toward a God they simply don't understand.]  They cry and beller and raise a hue, but don't even know the child's name what they interred.  They are there for the spectacle that is an Atlanta funeral - as if the tortures were the pre-course of the belle epoque.  I've gnashed my teeth again, my jaw will be sore tomorrow.

Not that I am a blessed saint, destined for the firmament of Heaven, even if I was the Holy Scribe that could write the story - I am far too honest for that - but I am a dirty, low, rotten-to-the-core charlatan.  And I make no amends on Sunday, but I confess my sins to a fence that lives down this dark road.  My penance will be in the form of large silver certificates.  I hope and pray.  Amen.

The gas lamps wave meager light all along the dark-face of the boulevard.  The hulking figures in the shadow lumber like a drunken dance.  Their faces blank under the shadow of their chapeau.  They keep their hands hidden from view, as I do: it levels the playing field.

A man stops as I walk past, the sheen of light illuminating my face for a moment and he (that looked as if an ox had mated with the hale of a Viking woman), pushed my shoulder with his.  He vied for a better look.  As I am not new to this dance, I quickly stole to the shadows and briskly walked through a dozen men.  The time of day would make it impossible to follow.  The only condition better for alluding the cutthroats here is rain, but the light veil of fog was welcome tonight.  [I always said to myself that when I have the lot in hand the danger is much more then when it is converted to cash.  At least money is easily hid and trackless after it is turned.  I had two enemies: the police and the not-police to contend with.]

I pull my scarf in, particularly hiding the cheekbones, which my detective in the State Police said is the sure path to getting hung.  The eyes and the cheekbones - that's what'll get you caught and make the recollection and soon after his justice.

I get to Lawrence East and make a left.  Here I stop, lean against the wall and allow the passers-by through.  This is where I take caution.  Police are near here, as it is an easy way to put the scrutiny on one coming from the other side of the tracks to the electric light.  Why did Coltrain do this here?  Thaddeus had asked that very question every single time he turned that corner.

There were a few police on the opposite side of the street talking with a man that he had seen before.  A drifter that had just rolled in a few weeks ago and already stirring up trouble.  That's why they're drifters.  He looked both ways and saw no no one taking an interest.  Just as he wanted.  Even still, he turned on his heel and walked the opposing direction.  Then, turned toward Lawrence West and saw that the veil of fog was not enough, but there was no one here keeping an eye on him.  He waited for five minutes before going on.

I'll ask for forty-five.  Natch will bring it down, of course, and they would do the dance for several minutes before arriving at the conclusion that both of them are getting the raw deal of the transaction.  I'll probably get thirty.  This was fine.  He rarely needed the money, and it was much more worthwhile, as an investment, to have Natch happier than he.  I'll stop myself before I tell my conscience that he deserves a cut of my earnings.

Natch hid his pleasure at seeing Thaddeus.  They closed the door and Natch made small talk while he turned a hand crank.  It squealed as it opened a slight opening in the store's shelves that no one could see from the only window that allowed purview for the outside world.  To anyone passing by, this was an Elixir and Book Shoppe, not the stolen goods (and sometimes pawn) market Natch had built within.  Natch would never sell the items here, that would be the height of daftness: he only held them until other stores, in better districts could sell them at a higher rate.  Thaddeus wondered if he was on the wrong side of the counter here - the money the other stores made (and he knew having frequented them, and seeing the ticket price for his hard work).  A blank looking bald man took his place behind the counter, looking as disinterested as he could.  Why get actual business, eh?

Natch put out a black-tar sail's cloth on a weapons crate that he piled as a make-shift desk.  He had nothing else near it, so that way the thieves would honor his work.  He put his hand out, "Let's see it."  As simple as it sounded, Thad knew there was a monster sitting outside his view.  A monster with a chain or a great hammer to take care of trouble.  Hell, it may even be a fancy man with a pistol for all I can see in here.  [He did have such a man before, Thad quickly mulled over, by the name of Ace.  He carried a two shot knuckle buster.]

Thaddeus, the Dramatist, smirked through the dark, wet strands of hair covering his face and emptied out a small beaten leather satchel.  Jewels came out in handfuls.  Natch whistled, "Where?"

"Not going to say, Natch.  I would not dare risk persecution if it comes back."

"Persecution?  Thaddeus, you stole this from little old ladies."

"I don't like little old ladies."  Natch smiled and started shifting through the collection.

"How much you want?"

"Forty-five, all cash."

Natch almost keeled over and didn't breathe for several seconds, "Did you think you walked into a bank?"

"I know how much you sell my things for.  You'll get hundred thousand easy on this."

Natch made motions to argue and instead looked back on the lot.  He had to hold his tongue or risk saying something thick-headed and lose out on the profit.  "How do these look to the police?"  I don't dare say they made Page 3 of The Intelligencer.  I shrug.  What an impossible to ask, Natch.  Let's keep our wits about us.

"Look if you don't want this easy: I can go over to Peachtree and make what I want."

"How about thirty?"  Higher than I thought.

"How about thirty three?"

He paused and nodded. He emptied all of the lot from the sail's cloth into a door at the top of the weapon's case.  He threw the pouch at me, "You are a conniving cuss, ain't you?"

"No certificates?"

He shook his head.  "There was a robbery of the stage coming from Penn.  There won't be any bills in the city for weeks.  Guess you'll settle on coin, friend." 

I took offense for a second, but smoothed it out quickly, "As much as you are a friend: I work hard to keep the kid's fed, and to keep the Panic at bay."  He scoffed with a sneer, "I'll bet your 'kids' wear fishnet stockings and throw up their skirts at night."

"You are adroit, Natchez.  That's why I like to come here and give you first take."

"Yeah, but the pleasure of it is costing more and more, isn't it, friend?"

I grew tired of the topic, pocketed the bag in a double fold pocket close to my ankle.  No one was going to get it until they cut me open.  I walk out of the store and into an even impenetrable shield of of fog.  I may have to go to Peachtree for a while.  Natch is catching a darker humor that could be a problem.

I walked along Park Way and then took the right series of trees, block wall tops and window ledges to my home.  The electric lamps led the way with ease, all was quiet and not a scent of urine to be had.  I sat in my penthouse suite, poured a finger of bourbon.  It had been a good week, I cannot wait to stretch my legs again.  There is a hotel safe that needs to be lightened of its expensive burden...

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

...Sylvia Plath at Yaddo 1959...

Yaddo: The Grand Manor (1959 - all poems that follow are also attributed to the same year):
"...The fir tree's thick with grackles.  Gold carp loom in the pools."

The Manor Garden:
"History Nourishes these broken flutings, These crowns of acanthus, And the crow settles her garments."

Selected excerpts: A Poem for a Birthday:
I. Who
"This shed's fusty as a mummy's stomach: Old tools, handles and rusty tusks.  I am at home here among the dead heads."
II. Dark House
"This is a dark house, very big.  I made it myself, Cell by cell from a quiet corner....It is warm and tolerable In the bowel of the root."
III. Maenad
"This month is fit for little.  The dead ripen in the grapeleaves.  A red tongue is among us.  Mother, keep out of my barnyard, I am becoming another."
IV. The Beast
"...Fido Littlesoul, the bowel's familiar.  A dustbin's enough for him.  The dark's his bone.  Call him any name, he'll come to it."
V. Flute Notes form a Reedy Pond
"This is not death, it is something safer."
VI. Witch Burning
 
A draft of  'Ariel'.
"It is easy to blame the dark: the mouth of a door, The cellar's belly...What large eyes the dead have!  I am intimate with a hairy spirit."
VII. The Stones
"Drunk as a foetus I suck at the paps of darkness."

The Colossus:
"Counting the red stars and those of plum-color.  The sun rises under the pillar of your tongue.  My hours are married to shadow."

Sylvia Plath spent a fall in Yaddo from early September to before Thanksgiving of 1959.

Flora on the Yaddo Grounds

Dark Wood, Dark Water:
"This wood burns a dark Incense.  Pale moss drips In elbow-scarves, beards From the archaic Bones of the great trees."

Mushrooms:
"Overnight, very Whitely, discreetly, Very quietly Our toes, our noes Take hold on the loam, Acquire the air."



Saturday, August 2, 2014

...pre-mission briefing to the crew of the Prometheus as led by mission strategist Kenny Powers...

RE: mission proposal to  the specialists aboard the Prometheus on its voyage to the Engineer world of LV_233.  Vickers, Janek and Shaw in attendance, with the briefing led by MLB pitcher, and Giants #19, Kenny "Fucking" Powers.
Firstly, keep an eye on that dick head android, David.  That sneaky sumbitch is spending way too much time learning.  No one needs to learn ancient languages, especially a fruity robot.  He looks like that Australian dude.  What's his name?  David Bowie.  Never cared for that guy.  It's not rock, not at all.  Plus, that fucking toaster likes to sass.  He talks back.  I'd fucking smack that thin-lipped grin off his face.  Dick.
Next, before you land on any planet, after spending four trillion dollars of Weyland's money, you may want to like rotate arounds it for a while.  I know I would.  Get to know the weather patterns, identify any hostile environments, seismic activity.  All that shit.  I mean Janek, you don't want to land your sweet ass space vehicle on a planet you just got to right?  Take your time, at least a few weeks (as recommended to me by the Extra-Stellar Commission - you know scientists).  You don't want one of them space worms snatching at your crotch like in Empire Strikes Back.  I mean, you are not no Han Solo, that's for damn sure.  Vickers, you keep saying you the one in control, what with your hot tight ass and shit, those bodacious tatas - you may want to tee up with Janek and square that shit away.
[Speaking of which Vickers, I'm getting over a relationship, but you can like stack and rack on me when you get that itch in your nether regions.  That'd be alright.  Kenny's got the power to make you cosmic cum all over the damned place.]
Ok, now let's get the mission straight.  You all need to decide, right now, that you want to actually come back.  Unless all 17 of you have a death wish, maybe call a few huddles and say, 'Hey, let's do like our research and shit, get some rocks and skeletons and get back home.  Let's not all die because we refused to make good decisions.'  When I was closing games with the Merman, I would drop those truth bombs all over the dug, right.  Let the team know to back this train up.  I'm looking at you, Shaw.  You're the scientist, I figure you know all about that scientific method and performing all sorts of protocols and procedures and shit and not run into an ancient alien facility like rhesus monkeys on jamboree.
Rule number whatever: never take off a helmet on a foreign body, no matter what the read-outs say.  The human eye is good (and I can hit a goddamned fly off a fence from 60 feet), but you will not be able to tell if there are microbes or deadly alien world viruses, or small-dicked asshole space weeds that'll shoot pearls into your mouth.  Unless you like that sort of thing....Vickers.  I'm up here, baby.  Eye contact.
And, hey, don't just touch shit because its there.  That's what digital cameras are for.  It's 2093, we got the right technology instead of carrying around ancient alien body parts in duffel bags.
If you see any alien snakes, don't touch the little fuckers.  Let them be.  Do we touch snakes in the 'Bama.  No.  That's why we have brains.  David, man, stop looking at me with those dead fucking eyes, bro.  You do NOT want any of this.
A controlled mission means we work together, listen to one another and follow some basic scientific guidelines.  We do not prance off on our own, split up while on a planet light years away from Earth.  Let's do some drills before we go off into dark caverns.
Oh, and take weapons, dummy.  Second amendment is in full effect in outer space.  I looked it up.
Most government agencies, by the year 2014, know pretty damn well that any lab work can be done outside of the main habitation of the Prom.  It's like when you get crabs.  You just don't bring them back home to the family.  You stay in a hotel for a few nights and let the beds take care of it.  They transfer right over like little migrant workers.
The captain doesn't leave the ship, ever.  In fact, a core group should stay well away from the landing party.  That's why they make doors.
Don't kick bodies laying right outside that already fucked with a camera and are looking a lot like Regan from The Exorcist.  Shoot that piece of shit a few times in the head before you get within tickle distance.
In fact, I'm looking at Dave over there eye-fucking me, so you know what?  You just stay outside for the duration of the mission.  I get a sick vibe from this asshole.  Is there like a kill switch?  If anything that James Cameron or Michael Bay taught us in their documentaries is that robots are only destined to kill their maker.  Fuck this dick.
If things happen to look like they are stockpiling an arsenal of shit in climate controlled rooms that are locked and have a pile of dead warriors outside of it - you probably want to live that shit alone.  That's like a 'do not enter' sign.  Maybe send some of those laser eggs along.
If things go south, leave that fucking planet.  There's no need to hang around and yell at one another.  You know who are the smart ones?  The ones that cut and run motherfucker.
All of that being said, have a great mission and hopefully those Engineers have nice taut asses and luscious tits.  Peace out!